Just Keep Talking
That’s all he ever does, talk and talk and talk. You always had to listen to his rants, and it was annoying to no end. He would start talking about one thing but then stray in his lecture about triggers and all that other stuff that annoyed him. You just asked him a simple question, you’ve been listening so long you can’t even remember what the question was. You’ve been listening to him long enough, you start zoning out. Unfortunately Kankri could tell by now that you weren’t paying attention.
“Hey are y9u even listening t9 me?” He asked clearly irritated. Great he could tell, now you’d have to listen to another lecture on that.
“No, I can’t focus with your untracked train of speech.” You said starting to fall asleep.
Sure you liked hearing what he had to say but if he didn’t have a point you could care less. As your eyes started closing you could see a red sweater coming close to you. Great he’s coming to wake you up.
“____ wake up it’s very triggering when s9me9ne falls asleep while trying t9 h9ld a c9nversati9n.” He said in his calm kind voice. You loved his voice even when you hated it.
“I think you don’t know the meaning of the word conversation. Conversation means both sides are talking and entitled to talk after a sentence or two.” You said glaring at him slightly. Damn his soft eyes had to make it hard to glare at him didn’t they. But one thing that made it hard was his adorable pout.
“It’s still triggering when y9u d9n’t listen. I was trying to tell y9u s9mething.” He said, again with that cute face of his.
“No you weren’t, you got off topic. Too far off topic for me to remember the original topic.” You grumbled looking away from him. Much easier to be mad without seeing him.
“S9rry if my lecture triggered y9u.” He said sounding sincere, why’d he have to be so kind.
“Your not sorry, you always do this.” You grumbled, not like it wasn’t true.
Sure you would mess up and do something stupid from time to time but that didn’t mean he should just start lecturing you over every little thing. His lectures always left you confused. His annoying behavior but it was so soft and mild mannered that you couldn’t help but love it. His voice was like the sound of easy flowing water with a cool breeze. If you were pissed you’d just go find him to hear his calming voice and feel his warm heat radiate. He was so comforting when you needed him to be but still annoyed you other wise. You hated the ways he pulled you in. you hated how he got you to listen. You hated how no matter what you couldn’t stay mad at him. You hated how you just had to love him.
He’s such an emotional trigger. His looks, his voice, his touch, everything about him always seemed to make you melt. Even when he annoyed you with his long winded lectures you still felt your stomach in knots from his smooth voice. Perhaps he had some spell over you that made you have to be around him. Even if it was witch craft you didn’t care, you wanted to be under his spell.
“L99k ____ I kn9w I’m n9t always the m9st entertaining pers9n t9 listen t9 but that d9esn’t mean y9u sh9uld just st9p listening.” There he goes again. Talking on another subject.
“Just keep talking Kankri I can promise you I’m listening.” Your sarcasm leaked out but of course he would take it seriously none the less.
“Than keep that pr9mise and listen t9 me this time ar9und ____.” He sounded hurt but still wanting to talk.
He went on and on about triggers and how it was disrespectful for you to stop listening and just start falling asleep. You tilted you head down so he wouldn’t see your eyes closing. You were falling asleep again and didn’t want to wake up this time. He could talk himself to death but you didn’t want to listen right now. His soft voice just lulled you to sleep fast and you didn’t hear anything.
Your imagination took over, you were in your dreams. You could only see a soft red sweater as you were laying against some warm body. You knew this dream all too well. It was the one where you were just laying around with Kankri in some field, as he whispered the sweetest things, with his all too sweet voice, in you ear. He wasn’t ranting or lecturing about beauty or about the field just giving you occasional compliments as you laid with him listening to his breathing patterns.
“L9ve y9u ____.” He whispered pulling you closer.
You loved that part of the dream. Those reassuring words just worked wonders on your state of mind. You blushed cuddling close to him as he kissed your head.
“Love you too Kankri.” You replied as your heart fluttered. You loved this never ending dream of sweet love and warmth.
Sadly it always had to be interrupted by something. Great, you started waking up, your eyes slowly opening. You were already blushing from your dream. But to make it worse you woke to find a set of confused eyes looking at you. You yelped sitting up seeing it was Kankri. Why was he suddenly so close to you? He had personal space problems so he wouldn’t come close without reason. What happened?
“What was that ____?” He asked, he was still so close, you could feel his breath. Did you say something?
“W-what?” You stammered as your blush grew under his stare.
“Y9u said s9me thing, I’m n9t sure I heard y9u c9rrectly th9ugh. It s9unded 9ut 9f y9ur character.” He explained standing keeping you in his gaze.
“Well what did you hear me say?” You asked, it was the only way to know what he was talking about without him knowing you were asleep.
“9ddly en9ugh it s9unded like y9u said s9mething al9ng the lines 9f ‘Love you’” He said looking at you clearly confused. You blushed furiously, you were talking in your sleep.
“I-I didn’t s-say that. I was mumbling to myself it doesn’t matter what I said.” You crossed your arms looking away with your blush clear on your face.
Great now he can tell how you felt. His hypnotic ways just hurt to be around when it got awkward. He’d just look at you in the sweetest way that just made you look at him and stare. He’d hug you and just make your heart skip every other beat under his touch. But he seemed different this time around. His sweet eyes seemed hurt by something. He didn’t come to hug you in comfort either. He just stared at you with large crimson eyes that glossed with what appeared to be building tears.
He sniffled looking away from you keeping composure in his voice. You couldn’t read his emotions and couldn’t tell what was going on. Maybe falling into your wonderland of dreams wasn’t the best of ideas after all.
“Very well ____, I supp9se I was merely hearing things when I th9ught y9u said that…” He sounded stiff, that wasn’t like him, it’s worrying to you.
You got up slowly walking towards him. Carefully you wrapped your arms about him in an attempt to comport the clearly injured Kankri. He flinched at your touch but settled in as you embraced him. You layed your chin on his shoulder keeping him close. Both your cheeks blushed but your position didn’t let you see his. He was so warm, it was like your dream but depressing. You didn’t know why he was so hurt, why he wasn’t talking, why he wasn’t ranting the way you knew him to. You couldn’t say why to any of this, it hurt to see that somehow you did something to get him like this. You couldn’t stand the thought of him being like this around you, even if it pissed you off you wanted to hear him ramble.
“Kankri…why do you seem so hurt? What did I trigger?” you asked hoping he would bring himself to an response. He turned in your arms facing you with a faint cherry blush on his face.
“….I…had s9mewhat, h9ped….y9u meant what y9u said….” Kankri had drawn his attentive gaze to a corner in the room with his blush growing.
Your own face grew red at his words. Was he saying he loved you? Was he saying that lies hurt him? Was he saying that he felt you led him on? Your not sure but you are cautious with how you react. You don’t want to ruin your chances but your silence made him shift.
“I understand y9ur c9nfusi9n. If y9u’d like t9 reframe fr9m talking t9 me fr9m n9w 9n I’d understand ____.” He said with his head down in a low volume. That was the last thing you wanted.
You weren’t going to let him believe you weren’t interested and you weren’t going to let this chance slip away now. You pulled him closer in your embrace. Your hand framed the side of his face drawing it towards your own. His blushing face was beautiful and it just left you dazed in love. You came close to him feeling his breath as you brought your lips over his. You locked them together. You weren’t going to mess up, you weren’t going to disappoint him, you weren’t going to hurt him, and you sure weren’t going to leave him now.
You found his hands wrapping about your waist bringing you against him. Your hands slid up from his face into his hair, those messy black locks were soft curling around your finger. He began kissing back, he was showing that he loved you. Finally you could say you were certain he was yours. You tugged at his hair pulling his lips harder against yours.
His kiss was heavenly, sweet like a strawberry. His tongue started licking at your lips, you opened gladly. He made his way in smooth and silky. You could taste the deepest parts of his mouth, they were completely different from just his lips. His mouth fresh and mint like while his lips were sweet. The combination drove you crazy as he explored your mouth feeling every inch. You felt complete, his touch and affection was what you always wanted.
You both were running out of air and pulled back with a strand of saliva keeping you together.
“I l9ve y9u ____.” He said catching his breath. It was in the same soft voice as your dream.
“Love you too Kankri.” You said cuddling into his chest.
“S9 y9u did mean it when y9u said it in y9ur sleep. Y9u c9uld have just said s9. I w9uldn’t reject y9u ____.” He claimed holding your head against him.
“Alright, just keep talking.” You sighed out closing your eyes enjoying the moment.